Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Fear of Unknown


I've been reading a book called "Plan B; What do you do when God doesn't show up the way you though He would" by Pete Wilson.  I've been a little disappointed with my life so far.  My four year plan of being married or engaged by the time I graduated from college didn't happen.  I've got six months and it's not happening.  I've also been disappointed with my writing, the struggles of getting published.

There was a particular chapter that interested me.  He talks about how his child was afraid of the dark and he had to check under the bed for monsters or things that went bump in the night.  It wasn't really the dark that she feared.  It was the fear of the unknown.  I admit t hat I still sleep with a nightlight on and I don't like the dark.  Maybe I also fear the unknown.  My plan was to be married and have a baby so I could be a stay-at-home Mom and write.  I don't have a Plan B.  It's scary.  When I graduate, I don't know what I'll do for work.  Though I'm hopefully traveling to New Zealand a few months after, I don't know what that will be like.  I'm afraid of the unknown.  I'm a planner and I'm pretty sure that God laughs when we make plans because our plans will never have as much meaning as his.

I shouldn't have a reason to be afraid of what's to come.  I need to trust that God will be with me, no matter what.

Also, I finally decided to buy a Kindle.  It's supposed to come in the mail tomorrow!  I'm very excited to start reading on it.  My goal is to reread "The Lord of the Rings" by J.R.R. Tolkien this summer.  I first read it when I was twelve.  Quite a difficult series for a twelve-year-old.  I can't wait to read it again and see all that I missed! :)  What better to read a story about a small  hobbit that changed the course of history with his journey.  Frodo wasn't afraid to travel to the end of the Middle Earth to destroy the Ring and protect his way of life.

I also absolutely love the love story between Aragorn and Arwen!  A beautiful and ageless love.  Viggo Mortensen... alas, you are incredibly handsome! :)

Hope you had a wonderful Tuesday!!

In Christ,
Krista M

1 comment:

  1. Yes, "Life is what happens when you're busy making plans," according to John Lennon. And I find that sometimes important things arrive when you finally forget about them and get involved in a new project or whatever. You know?
    Or, as the Stones said, "You get what you need."