Sunday, August 28, 2011

Jane Eyre

My roommate and I just finished watching the most recent rendition of this beloved book and I have to put in my two cents about it.  Though I admit that I did not read the book. I found it to be a very interesting tale and heartbreaking, amazing that a woman would actually still have love in her soul after such mistreatment as a child. What a horrible woman to hate a child like that to send her to a place to be beaten.  I strongly disliked her aunt. 

And I admit that I was never overcome with positive feelings towards Edward Rochester, even though he kept his insane wife locked up to protect her and took in a child that wasn't his.  I never really wanted Jane to end up with him.  Yes, he did love her and she greatly loved him, but it never seemed to fit to me.  Even after his wife had died.  I still held a bitterness towards him for greatly hurting Jane like that, even if it wasn't intentional.  I do have to say that the ending of the most recent moive was like falling off a cliff.  It just ends.  My roommate told me that the others have more of a conclusion that shows her happiness.  The way he treats her in the beginning would have pushed me away from him.  He is arrogant and accuses her of being a witch. 

There are a lot of good things about the story and the pain of Jane's life, her finally getting happiness.  I just dislike how women were treated.  They are shown little respect and treated as possessions most of the time.  I understand wanting to live in Jane Austin's time for a man like Mr. Darcy, but I could not keep my mouth silent like those women.  I'm not a feminist, but I like my freedom as a young woman to speak my mind and attend school, not be forced to marry for financial gain. 

I learned in my book about New Zealand that they were the first country to give women the right to vote in 1893, twenty years before women in the United States.  That's very interesting to me. 

I will say that Jane Eyre is a good story, but not one of my favorites.  I don't mean to offend anyone that might like that book.  I just wanted to say a little something. :)

Friday, August 26, 2011

Campaign and "Nameless"

Well, I decided to join a campaign, a platform building campaign from Rach Writes.  You should go check it out! :)  I'll let you know how it goes.  I've never done it before.

And I would like to say that thanks to Krista, I've decided that I am going to work on my fantasy novel now.  I'll start with a little more map planning and then I'll work on the first draft.  Also, I want to thank her for letting me see the title for the book.  I had labeled it on my computer as Nameless fantasy novel and she liked that.  So, I will now be calling it, "Nameless", which actually fits quite well with the theme of the story.

Have a great Friday!

Monday, August 22, 2011

Nameless fantasy novel

Okay, I said in my last post that I would share a little bit about the fantasy novel that I started writing as an escape from all of the other problems with finding an agent for young adult Christian fiction.  Because agents that want Christian books want non-fiction or adult fiction.  No wonder there are so many Amish type young adult Christian novels.  No modern ones can get published.  Anyway... enough of my rant.

And off topic again, I was reading more about New Zealand in my book today and the author was describing the government and temperment of the people.  They like to joke around with people and find great worth in a person with friendliness and humility.  The government, though they have a lot of political parties, sounds simple.  They also have an extreme interest in rugby.  I'd like to see a live match of that sometime.  Not many people play that in the United States.

Back to the fantasy novel, I actually started the idea with a writing prompt from my blogging friend, Krista over at I Take the Pen.  She posts a prompt every week and then picks a winner to receive "The Mighty Pen" award.  You should definitely go check it out!  This is the prompt that she gave; "You don't understand! I can't. I can't."... So, I turned that into...

I can't," the young woman begged.

"You will give him up to me," the man hissed, squeezing her wrist and causing her to cry out in pain.

"Never, you can torture me, but I will never give him up to you! I cannot!" she yelled.

He dropped her to the hard stone floor and let her fall, slamming the heavy wood door in her face. Lily trembled, wrapping her arms around her shoulders as she wept. Water dripped down the dungeon walls and the sound of someone screaming came from down the long hallway right outside her door. It was too much, but Lily refused to give up. She would protect her brother until the day she died. He was fighting for freedom and the mistreatment of their people. Death would just be another adventure. 

Also, CherylAnne had a prompt and I kinda continued the same plot thought, just the opposite side of what was going on.  Focusing on the brother instead of the sister and came up with this: (her prompt is in bold.)

Cool metal pressed against his bare skin and a soft hiss, like cold water on a hot pipe, surrounded him. Thoughts slogged through his head, heavy and think, and breaths came in shallow bursts. He rolled on his side and eyed dark glass spanning the far wall.  They were watching…

and there was no hope of escaping this cold prison. He was going to die here. Edom dropped to the floor, no longer wishing to stare out the window at his own death. They were preparing the gallows to hang him. He wished that things were different and it didn't have to end like this. He could have saved all of them... the couple with the newborn baby, the toddler twins, and the man who was searching for his wife. He could have saved them, but he couldn't now. They were also condemned to death. The worst part was... Edom had brought his own sister to death. Lily was gone.

"You. Now," a voice snarled.

Edom closed his eyes as he was dragged to his feet. The man hauled him to his feet and down the long hallway, out into the cold night air. The rope was rough around his neck. No one was crying for him or watching anymore. Just his captors.

"I'm sorry, Lily," Edom whispered.

There was a loud thump and the price of freedom has been paid and it was not enough.

So, that's a lot of information, but I've started a novel that I can't seem to name about a group of young people, mostly children that are healers and because of their unexplained magic, they are hunted and murdered.  Edom is the leader and I changed his sister's name to Liora.  I think it's an interesting story to read about people that would have their own children murdered and allow such evil to harm innocent children that really can only heal.  I don't know.  If anyone that likes fantasy would be willing to read the first chapter and tell me if it even sounds like fantasy, I'd love it!

Sunday, August 21, 2011

Revised Goals

* All editing for "To Love Without Hope" will be completed by September 1st.  This includes grammatical editing, character development corrections, adding new scenes, and cutting previous scenes that were only for word count.  (Done)
* Possibly hear back from beta readers on "The Secret" by September 6th (Partially completed, still waiting to hear back from one reader)

* Finishing reading all of "The Fellowship of the Ring" (again) by J.R.R. Tolkien by August 30th
* Begin reading "The Two Towers"

I am scratching the whole “reading” section and making some other choices. 

* Purchase tickets for Wicked starting on August 20th  (I don’t have anyone to go with, sad!  I desperately want to go!)
* Research churches in New Zealand  (I found one that sounds pretty good, but I think this will be more important when I get there)


* Complete elephant cross-stitch bib

* Read first few chapters of “Living Abroad in New Zealand” by Michelle Waitzman (I started reading it today and it’s quite good so far.  There are no native mammals in New Zealand, only a bat.  No poisonous snakes or spiders.  It’s a laid back way of life.  I am getting more excited about this!)

* Think of title for fantasy novel (This is something I’m considering.  I have one chapter written and I’m not sure where it is going yet.  Maybe I’ll share something about it in my new post.)

My overall goal is to take a little break from writing, though I'm not sure that that will be completely possible since I'm coming up with an idea for a fantasy novel.  That's the life of a writer, I try to take a break and more plot bunnies come running past me.  Well, I'll just see how that goes and in my next post, maybe I'll give you some details about my fantasy idea.  In the meantime, classes start tomorrow and my last semester begins.

Saturday, August 20, 2011

Waiting for Mr. Darcy

Ah, yes.  He is incredibly handsome.

I forgot how much I love "Pride and Prejudice".  Though I admit that I don't find Colin Firth that attractive.  I prefer the other Mr. Darcy - Matthew Macfadyen.  He is yummy.

I know that I am waiting for my "Mr. Darcy", a man that will confess his love for me in the rain, even if he uses the wrong words - as long as his words are genuine.  There's a certain loveliness about the 18th century etiquette; the way that a man stands when a woman enters the room and bows to her, the way that they dance and how everything socially is built around dancing with a man - it is how they show a male that they are interested, since most of the time young women were supposed to appear as if they didn't want to marry.  A young lady would meet a young man at a dance and it they found it each agreeable, they would dance most of the night.  He might call on her a few times and it he chooses, the young gentleman will ask for her hand and they will be engaged.  She would be able to refuse, but it seems better than some of our wasteful dating.  I would love to have my "Mr. Darcy" trying to speak with me as we danced back and forth in a line.  Their dancing had so much more taste that some of the modern dances we see among young people.

I do love Mr. Darcy.

Not to forget of writing... I am currently not wanting to do much of the sort.  The idea of spending hours searching more agents and querying makes me a little ill.  I'll give it some time.  I don't want to focus on it.

I am content to dreaming about dancing with Mr. Darcy and forgetting all of my troubles for a time.

Thursday, August 18, 2011

One step forward, two steps back

At least I know.  I sent a follow-up email this morning to the agent that had requested my full manuscript of "Down in the Creek".  I didn't expect to hear back so quickly.  Twenty minutes later, I had my answer.  She regretfully had to inform me that their company had suspended all acquisitions of new material to focus on their current clients.  She mentioned that I was towards the top of her list, but it might be quite a long time before they could get back to me.

I will have to keep looking and start all over again, querying agents and waiting for more rejections.  Maybe it would be easier to start wishing on bright stars.

I said that I would praise God no matter the outcome and I am pleased that he let me have the experience.  I praise Him, but that doesn't mean that I'm not hurting.  Why is it so complicated? 

I could really use that frying pan right now.  I'd like to knock myself over the head for a little bit.  I am going to be strong through this, but it is hard.  God, please let me lean on you. 

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

A frying pan, who knew?

Who would have known that a frying pan would be such a popular weapon of choice?

Sam's pan from The Lord of the Rings

Rapunzel's pan from Tangled

Who knew?   You are probably wondering what is the point of this.  Yes, people hit people on the head with frying pans.  My point is, I think we should all carry a frying pan as writers.  They would be very useful. 

Someone doesn't think that you should be a writer.  *HIT*  An agent doesn't like your book.  *HIT*  You found someone who is doing so much better than you with writing and you are extremely jealous.  *HIT*

Today, I think I'm gonna go out and buy a frying pan. :)

Can you think of any movies where a character hits someone with a frying pan?  If you have a frying pan, would you hit someone on the head?

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

That place of Negativity

Ugh... I am back at that place of negativity.  It's been over two months and I am still waiting to hear if that agent likes my book.  That was June and now it's August.  I start my final semester on Monday, but I'm feeling a bit negative.  I know that I will NOT give up, but I need to hear something from her, either way.

I did find this song today that is actually making me feel quite a bit better.  I think you'll like it.  It's about going one more, and not stopping. 

Hope you have a good day!

Saturday, August 13, 2011

Facing Your Fears

Sometimes the hardest thing we do in life is face our fears.  It is those moments that define our lives.  Two months ago today, I sent my full manuscript to a perspective agent.  I am still waiting to hear back from her, but whatever happens... I've made a decision.

God says in the Bible - 365 times - "Do not fear."

Whether the agent likes my book or not, I will praise God.  Whether I am ever published or not, I will praise him.  If I never get married, I will praise God.  I need to let go of the baggage and fear in my life and give it all to God.

As long as I honor God, I believe that nothing is impossible if I give my best to Him.

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Wanted; Beta readers

Goal accomplished:  Editing of "To Love Without Hope".

Wanted:  Beta readers

How many:  2-3

Well, I have spent the last three days, eating, sleeping, breathing and editing my novel and I am quite happy with the way that it turned out.  I added a scene or two and fixed all of those glaring mistakes, though I'm not perfect and probably missed a few still.  The ending still could probably use a little more, but for this round of editing, I can say that I am happy with it. :)

Now, I am searching for 2-3 people that would be willing to give me a critique of the novel.  It would be nice if the person would actually normally read some young adult fiction and are comfortable with Christian fiction.

But that's not all, I am willing to provide a little compensation for your time, along with an exchange.  A $5 gift card for!  I know that that is not much, but there would also be a possibility of me reading something for you and beta reading if you would like down the line.

DISCLAIMER:  Anyone that receives a copy of my manuscript, will not share it with others without my permission or make copies of it and post it anywhere online or email to others.  This is my unpublished work and I would like it protected.  "Keep it safe, keep it secret." -Gandalf (The Lord of the Rings)

So, if you would be interested, just leave your email address below and maybe a little about your history with this.  I would be very thankful and grateful!

Have a wonderful Wednesday!

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

When I look at You

Today's post isn't about writing, but about life.  The things that surround our writing and make us embrace those stories.

Have you reached that point in your life where you look around and all you see is one thing?  I'm not talking about white walls in an apartment that you aren't allowed to paint or carpet cubicle walls with a few pictures.  I'm talking about the one thing you see in people around you.  I'm sure that you've had that moment at one point.  When I look around, all I see is dating couples, engaged couples, and married couples.  I want to shut my eyes and pretend that I can't see it.  The worst part... attending a wedding as a single person.  I went with a group of friends to a wedding this past weekend.  It was beautiful and the couple is perfect for each other!  But I couldn't help looking at the people on the dance floor.  There were engaged couples, spinning around and laughing.  A newlywed couple of only a month were talking as he showed everyone that he was desperately in love with her and tended her every need.  An older couple danced slowly in a corner, age had taken their youth and brought more wrinkles, but their love remained.

All around me, I see happy couples and I can't stand it.  I'm close to not allowing myself to open Facebook because I can't see another engagement post!

Every night I write a letter to my future husband and sometimes it helps, but sometimes it doesn't.  Waiting has never been my thing and my husband is the thing that I've been waiting for since I heard the story of Cinderella.  I'm waiting for my handsome prince.

An example of one of my letters

I would give up my dream trip of going to New Zealand and I would give up my dream of writing - just to love my husband and to follow God's plan for our lives.

Sorry for the pity-party post. 

Sunday, August 7, 2011

New Goals

I've decided that I need to make some goals for the rest of this month because writing-wise I haven't been getting anything done since I finished "The Secret" at the end of July.  I did go to a wedding last night that was a two hours drive there and two hours back.  That took up most of yesterday, but I don't have a lot of other excuses.  So... without further ado... my goals.

* All editing for "To Love Without Hope" will be completed by September 1st.  This includes grammatical editing, character development corrections, adding new scenes, and cutting previous scenes that were only for word count.
* Possibly hear back from beta readers on "The Secret" by September 6th

* Finishing reading all of "The Fellowship of the Ring" (again) by J.R.R. Tolkien by August 30th
* Begin reading "The Two Towers"

* Purchase tickets for Wicked starting on August 20th
* Research churches in New Zealand

You are all welcome to keep me accountable to my goals and encourage me to finish them!  I definitely will need a little push once in a while, so I can hopefully get these things done soon. :)

How do you make sure that your projects get done in a timely manner?

Friday, August 5, 2011


Well, I just narrowly missed having surgery this morning to remove my kidney stone.  It came out on its own this morning an hour before.  Yay!!  I'm very excited not to have to do that!

Also, I received an award from the lovely Caitlin Vincent!  It's the Liebster Blog award, which means friend in German.  She's incredibly sweet and I love reading about her faith in her blog and she usually has something funny to say about her siblings.  You should go check it out.

There's no tell-us-seven-things rule to go along with this award. It's sole purpose is to connect bloggers, specifically those with less than 200 followers. Look how quick and simple these rules are:

  1. Show your thanks to the blogger who gave you the award by linking back to them.
  2. Reveal your top 5 picks and let them know by leaving a comment on their blog.
  3. Post the award on your blog.
  4. Bask in the love from the most supportive people on the internet—other writers.
  5. And best of all – have fun and spread the karma. 
I think this is wonderful, so I decided to pick some of my favorite bloggers to share this award with! 

1.  Krista - she does fun contests every week and is also an inspiring author!
2.  The East Coaster - a fun adventure to a goal of being published in a year!
3.  Angela Cook - she's a mom and a writer that refuses to give up!
4.  Christine Murray -  I always love her posts!  She's always got something go on in her life and trying to get published!
5.   Anyone else that would like the award!  I'll give it to you for free!

Still waiting to hear back from the perspective agent, so hopefully I will hear back from her soon.  I'm a little impatient, but no news is good news, right? :) 

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

A New Start

It's August, well of course since it is 99 degrees Fahrenheit outside with a heat index.  I moved in this heat yesterday and I'm now getting settled into my new apartment, which has carpet.  It's a strange thing to be excited about, but my other apartment only had cheap linoleum that you couldn't even sit on because it felt like cement under your butt.  I'm sitting at my parent's house because my internet isn't hooked up yet.  But I thought I would do a quick writing update.

I am still waiting to hear back from the agent that is reading my manuscript.  It's been about a month and a half.  I hopefully will hear back from her this month, which I'm a little nervous about, but I'm excited to hear her opinion about the writing and if she would still like to represent me.  Hopefully her team will be as impressed as they were with my book proposal.

Since I have finished writing "The Secret", I was wondering if anyone wanted to read it.  It's very rough, but I want someone's opinion on the story, things that could be improved, or if someone just wants to read it and let me know if it's any good... I'd like two or three people to read it.  Is anyone willing?

How are your projects going? :)  Is it as hot where you live?