Have you reached that point in your life where you look around and all you see is one thing? I'm not talking about white walls in an apartment that you aren't allowed to paint or carpet cubicle walls with a few pictures. I'm talking about the one thing you see in people around you. I'm sure that you've had that moment at one point. When I look around, all I see is dating couples, engaged couples, and married couples. I want to shut my eyes and pretend that I can't see it. The worst part... attending a wedding as a single person. I went with a group of friends to a wedding this past weekend. It was beautiful and the couple is perfect for each other! But I couldn't help looking at the people on the dance floor. There were engaged couples, spinning around and laughing. A newlywed couple of only a month were talking as he showed everyone that he was desperately in love with her and tended her every need. An older couple danced slowly in a corner, age had taken their youth and brought more wrinkles, but their love remained.
All around me, I see happy couples and I can't stand it. I'm close to not allowing myself to open Facebook because I can't see another engagement post!
Every night I write a letter to my future husband and sometimes it helps, but sometimes it doesn't. Waiting has never been my thing and my husband is the thing that I've been waiting for since I heard the story of Cinderella. I'm waiting for my handsome prince.
|An example of one of my letters|
I would give up my dream trip of going to New Zealand and I would give up my dream of writing - just to love my husband and to follow God's plan for our lives.
Sorry for the pity-party post.