Tuesday, August 9, 2011

When I look at You

Today's post isn't about writing, but about life.  The things that surround our writing and make us embrace those stories.

Have you reached that point in your life where you look around and all you see is one thing?  I'm not talking about white walls in an apartment that you aren't allowed to paint or carpet cubicle walls with a few pictures.  I'm talking about the one thing you see in people around you.  I'm sure that you've had that moment at one point.  When I look around, all I see is dating couples, engaged couples, and married couples.  I want to shut my eyes and pretend that I can't see it.  The worst part... attending a wedding as a single person.  I went with a group of friends to a wedding this past weekend.  It was beautiful and the couple is perfect for each other!  But I couldn't help looking at the people on the dance floor.  There were engaged couples, spinning around and laughing.  A newlywed couple of only a month were talking as he showed everyone that he was desperately in love with her and tended her every need.  An older couple danced slowly in a corner, age had taken their youth and brought more wrinkles, but their love remained.

All around me, I see happy couples and I can't stand it.  I'm close to not allowing myself to open Facebook because I can't see another engagement post!

Every night I write a letter to my future husband and sometimes it helps, but sometimes it doesn't.  Waiting has never been my thing and my husband is the thing that I've been waiting for since I heard the story of Cinderella.  I'm waiting for my handsome prince.

An example of one of my letters

I would give up my dream trip of going to New Zealand and I would give up my dream of writing - just to love my husband and to follow God's plan for our lives.

Sorry for the pity-party post. 


  1. It'll be fine. You're still young. How many of your Facebook friends have written a book?

    One of my friends that's my age has a kid that's 14. The last time I went to a strip club, the oldest stripper was five years younger than me.

  2. I'm sending you a billion hugs. Read Dan's response over, he's spot on.

  3. Oh my goodness! You are me, 15 years ago! LOL! I was single all through college. I went on a few dates, but that was about it. I remember praying every single night to fall in love . . . :o( Like you, I watched friends fall in love, get engaged, and get married. Ugh, it was so depressing! Though, I should note that all three of my best friends who got married in their early 20's are now divorced.

    About three months after graduating from college, I met the man I would later marry (2 1/2 years later) :o)

    You are so young! I know people tell you that ALL the time, and it probably gets annoying, but it's true! Your 20's are a time to grow and do all the things (like writing books) you might not have the time to do when you're married and having kids! I wish every day that I'd had enough confidence in myself to start writing when I was younger. It's not impossible to do when you have a family, but it's definitely more of a challenge.

    Enjoy these years! You WILL meet your Prince Charming eventually--probably when you least expect it :o)

  4. @Dan - You have a very good point. Not many people my age can say that they've written a novel, let along 4 of them.

    @The Easter Coaster - Thanks for your hugs! I gratefully accept them.

    @Angela - I agree that the 20s are a time to be discovering how I am and growing and writing, it can just be a little discouraging to see so many getting married and being single. I'm young and I have time, but it just gets me down some days. Thanks for the encouragement! I will meet my prince charming someday.

    Thanks to all of you for cheering me up! :)