I am reminded today that I need to be thankful for each day that I have. God only gives us so many days and it is only for him to know the number of days we have. My friend is fading and I can't help but feel sorrow. I wish I could do something other than pray for him and his wife, to ease his passing. Pamela posted something that I want to share with you:
If I may offer one piece of advice in life...do not wait. Do not wait for anything-find your priorities, and make them happen. Find a way to take the trip to New Orleans, or Disney World. Get the project around the house done, play that game with your family. Have a family. Do not wait-because if you do, life will run time out on you. We are here such a short time, some shorter than others. Make the most you can of the time you have!
I can't tell you how much this is affecting me and how important her words are. I really do need to start my life and stop just waiting for it to happen. I'm waiting for someone to discover my book, I'm waiting for a husband, and I'm waiting for money to take my trip to New Zealand. I have to stop waiting and make a change. Make those things happen. I've been concerned about graduating and having no job. Heck, the movie theater turned me down already. But I have to get the money, whether I move home until then and eat ramen noodles, I will get the money for my trip and I'm gonna go to New Zealand and see the beautiful land and love every moment of it.
And I'm gonna serve God while I do it. I've not felt such distance from God than in the past few months and it makes me feel terrible because I don't wanna feel anything. I don't wanna trust Him because I don't wanna lose my friend. But God doesn't make deals. He sees the bigger picture and he knows that I'm struggling, but he's here for me each moment and holding me. God is strong when I am weak.
I can't sit around and wait for life. Life is too short to be wasted and I'm gonna do something with my life. I'm thankful that I could know Chris and love him. He's not gone yet, but he'll hold a special place in my heart.
It's time to stop feeling alone and run back to God's waiting arms. I don't wanna waste my life.