How badly do you want something? Sometimes it hurts to dream because I want my dream so bad. I want to be published and I want to go to New Zealand. I don’t have the money and I can only pray that I have the talent to be published. I really want to win this contest. To be published and to have enough money for New Zealand and so I can pay off my student loans, it would be amazing. I keep thinking of that scene in “Tangled” at the Ugly Duckling and Rapunzel sings about her dreams. Then as Rapunzel and Flynn flee, the guy says to her, “Go, live your dream." I want to, but I'm kinda stuck. I need something to happen to change my circumstances.
I wish my parents would say that to me. I just wish that they would support me in my dreams to write and leave the country. I understand that they want to be a voice of reason, but at some point... when do you stop and just believe in your child? They were ashamed of me for quitting my full time job as a caseworker and now I’m just trying to find out what God wants me to do. It’s really hard. I don’t want to be frustrated with them, but at the same time a part of me just wants them to be proud of me. But I can’t give up who I am to be who they want me to be. I probably won't ever be perfect and exactly what they want, but I like who I am.
I've been dreaming of being an author since I was a little girl, not a teacher or a doctor. I will live my dreams, no matter what. I will prove to them that they can be proud of their daughter.
Do your parents support your dreams?