Saturday, May 5, 2012

Life and Other things

1) First, life is... I am terrible at decision making and I just... I just can't do it!  I've finally got a few options for my life, other than serving coffee, which I cannot keep doing, but I don't know what to do or pick.  I want to pick more than one and at the same time, I want to pick one that isn't on the list.  Oo, I should put them into a list!  Sorry, I really suck at this decision making.  I'm not even organized enough to decide!  Gah.  I've thought about talking to a friend, but I can't even organize my thoughts in my mind to say them.  I tried explaining to my older sister, but she said that it was my choice.  My life.

My life.  Those are two big words that are hard to comprehend.  I'm 23 and I've got my life in front of me.  I've known what I wanted since I was a little girl, playing with my Barbies.  But that hasn't happened.  I've got other choices, but the one I desire the most is hard to obtain.  It isn't being published, but that will come.  I'm sure of it.  I will keep working for it.  It's the other dream... that needs two people and some love.  Yep.

So, I feel like I need a vacation from life to go figure out my life.  Maybe.  I have to figure something out!  Being a coffee barista pays the bills, but barely.  And... I have bigger dreams for my life. This isn't what I wanted for my life. 

Seriously, I need a vacation.

2) I was tagged in the Lucky 7 meme again, during the A-Z Blogging Challenge by Dan over at Dangerous Dan's Blog - he posts amazing pictures and writes!  You should check it out!  Now that I have over 77 pages, I wanted to post what is actually on page 77 since I used page 7 before. 

Here are the rules:

1. Go to page 77 of your current ms.
2. Go to line 7.
3. Copy down the next 7 lines/sentences, and post them as they're written. No cheating.
4. Tag 7 other victims, er, authors.

So, without further chatter... page 77 of "Nameless"!!

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           “I know.  I’d never ask for forgiveness.”
           That ended the conversation and in the morning, Achieus gagged him again.  Edom had gained an understanding of the man, but he would never trust him or empathize with him. 
           Again, Dalia refused to eat unless the healers were fed.  The Guard couldn’t refuse her any longer and shared their stale but wonderful tasting bread with the healers.  They even shared their carrots and apples.  It was the best meal they’d had in days.  It was probably one of their last meals.  The princess asked to walk with the healers, but that request was denied.  

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If you haven't done this one, you definitely should!  It's fun!  I'm cheating because I'm not tagging 7 people, but please go ahead if you haven't done this!

3)   I don't have a three, but it sounded good at the moment.  Ah yes, I found this while searching for memes because life... (see above #1). 


Yes, awesome. :)

Well, this was ridiculously long for a blog post.  Have a great weekend!

3 comments:

  1. It's difficult when life doesn't exactly work out the way you hoped it would. Lots of decisions and not knowing which way to go! And nobody can make them for you, which can be frustrating sometimes! Things can change quickly, though. Praying that you will get some insight and also feel at peace with where you are right now. Hope you have a great weekend, too!

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  2. I don't envy you. Making major life decisions is hard. And don't be so hard on yourself...it's hard for everyone!

    I don't know what type of decisions you are faced with, but deep down you know which one you Need to go with. Follow your gut feeling. As for the dream that takes people :) That, like getting published, will come in time. So you need to box it up for later. That one is not on the table now. Just focus on the two you are dealing with and meditate, pray, do whatever it is that centers you and let your subconscious guide you because you already know the answer. :)

    Okay, enough of the creepy mojo stuff. :)

    Michelle
    www.michelle-pickett.com

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  3. That was a great excerpt. I know you'll see your dream of being published one day. :) As for the other life decisions, I sympathize. It's difficult to make a decision and take that big step. Good luck in whatever you decide to do.

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