Yes, you read that title correctly. I'd like to talk about something that is near and dear to my heart. My boobs. Because, yeah they are literally close to my heart.
No, I haven't gone crazy and no, I'm not gonna show you my boobs. I had an interesting conversation with my roommate today in the bra section of a store. I commented how a bra made my boobs look good and she laughed. That afternoon I made another joke about my boobs looking good in my new bra. Again, she laughed and asked why I kept bringing up my boobs today. I didn't know. So, I sat down to blog and thought about it.
I've never been a confident person. I didn't have any friends for two years in elementary school. During that time my best friend was a tree. I'd take it plastic tubs of water and pour the water on the base of the tree before school. In middle school, I was the awkward kid with pants that didn't fit right and my nose stuck in a book. In high school, I was the new kid my freshman year, again not having any friends for a year. And then I found the best group of friends, who let me be a band nerd and a lover of stories and books. But I've still never really been confident.
I tell myself that I'm not pretty enough. I tell myself that my clothes will never be the perfect ones, and I'll never be the skinny girl. And you know what, those are lies.
As writers, we believe the lies that say our writing will never be good enough and we'll never be published. No one will ever read our books. We don't have confidence in our writing. We belittle our stories, our characters, and unique quirks. I've tried to write like other people - to make my writing more desirable, but that's wrong. I love how I write and what I'm writing. I love my geeky characters and the fact that almost every one of my books has a character with a stuffed hippo, because they are my favorite animals.
Love what you write and make it your own. Don't try to be like another writer, but be confident in what you write and who you are. It's okay to like your boobs.
To sum up my slightly awkwardly titled post, be confident in who you are and love what you do. Some days I still hate my body and what I'm doing with my life, but other times I'm reminded that I'm me. I'm a writer, a dreamer, a Trekkie, and hopefully someday I'll look back at my writing and see how much I loved what I was writing and still do. :) Also, my new bra does make my boobs look pretty good and makes me feel confident. :)