The Insecure Writer's Support Group, which posts on the first Wednesday of every month and is run by our Ninja Captain Alex Cavanaugh. This is a place where writers can express doubts and concerns without fear of appearing foolish or weak. Those who have been through the fire can offer assistance and guidance. It’s a safe haven for insecure writers of all kinds.
I finished the first round of edits on my novella, Silent Beauty! I'm super excited for how they turned out and I've realized something. I really want this book to be the one. Silent Beauty is the tenth novel I've written and it might be my best yet. I love it! I love how diverse my characters are and I love reading about a character that is really different. She's deaf. I don't know a lot of novels where the main character is deaf or blind or suffering from a disability. I love Alanna and Jared and all of my characters in this book. I feel like they are unique. The two critique partners I heard back from, who read it - loved it!
But I'm scared that it won't make it. That maybe my one won't be enough. I want this book to be the one that people share with others and tell them they have to read it and beg others to buy a copy! I want this book to be on a bestsellers list and not because I had it free for a day. I want this book to inspire people to love everyone, despite their differences. And I want this book to be loved.
I guess I'm insecure about people not loving my book someday and it dying in a folder on my computer. I want it to be "the one". Am I putting too much pressure on one book?
For now, I'm not gonna give up on it. Maybe Silent Beauty is "the one" and maybe it isn't. But I'm going to continue loving and revising and hopefully submitting to the agent who will love it just as much as I do! :)