Thursday, December 31, 2015

To the New Year - 2016 Goals

It's my birthday! :) Today I am twenty-seven years old. I'm not really sure how I feel about being a year older. I have those weird little thoughts of...

Yep, but I'm sure it'll get better?

Anyway, since a new year starts tomorrow, I'm sharing my goals for the new year!

Goals for 2016

Writing Goals –

“Silent Beauty”
* Query another round of agents
* Consider self-publishing
* Hire editor/cover designer

* Finish first draft by April
* Revise
* Send to critique partners
* Revise again

“Somebody to Love”
* Rewrite second draft
* Send to critique partners
* Consider self-publishing

NaNoWriMo – November
* Write a new novel

Personal –

* Read at least 50 books
* Find a literary agent
* Finish rereading the Harry Potter series
* Learn a new talent
* Start saving money

Those are my goals for next year and hopefully they go well! :) What are your goals for next year? I'm off to celebrate my birthday with my friends and family! Happy Birthday to me and to Lord Voldemort! :) Happy New Year!

I keep forgetting to put Kili on my birthday list...

Monday, December 28, 2015

Wrapping Up 2015

Another year is over? Let me check my calendar, that can't be true. Oh, I guess it is! :) It's been a busy year and it's time to wrap up what happened this year with my writing goals!

Goals for 2015

“Nothing Left to Lose”
* Complete first round of revisions by February
* Send to critique partners
* Revise again
* Query/consider self-publishing

“Silent Beauty”
* Query another round of agents
* Consider self-publishing
* Hire editor/cover designer

“Cold to the Touch”
* Finish first draft by April
* Revise and consider submitting to small publishing houses

NaNoWriMo – November
* Write a new novel

Personal –
* Read at least 50 books
* Find a literary agent
* Learn to drive a manual
* Attend a Writer’s Convention

"Nothing Left to Lose"
I finished a rewrite of this book in April, but I'm not still not too sure how I feel about it. I made a major plot change and reworked one of the characters, but the story is still pretty rough.

"Silent Beauty"
I'm still very dedicated with this one! I entered it into a contest in February and had a few requests. Still waiting to hear back from one of them and a few other full requests. I'm really crossing my fingers on this one! It's my favorite book I've written to date and it's the one that I really want to get published. :)

"Cold to the Touch"
For now, I've put this book away. It was YA Science Fiction and not my normal genre I write. I might pick it up again, but for now it will sit uncomplete.

NaNoWriMo novel - "Summer of Lies"
I actually started this one in July and struggled for months to write it. It's the hardest book I've had to write, but I did finally finish it in November. I may try to revise it next year, but I'm not sure yet.

My baby sister and I
While I may not have finished all of my writing goals for this year, I did read 54 books, beating my goal of 50 books this year. I've had four different jobs just this year, so I'm really proud of what I did accomplish with my writing. I did learn to drive a manual! I'm awful at it, but I now know the basics of it and I've made it up 35 mph while driving it. (But only in the parking lot, I'm not ready for real streets.)

I hope your goals from 2015 went well! I'll be sharing my new goals on Thursday. Have a wonderful week!

Sunday, December 13, 2015

What I Want for Christmas

It's only 12 days until Christmas. While there are presents wrapped in colored paper beneath my geeky Christmas tree, complete with Star Trek ornaments and the Tardis lighting up, there's something missing. I've struggled with Christmas for the last three years. I'm not a child anymore and while those lights and Christmas carols still excite me, I've lost something in Christmas. I feel a little bit like Cindy Lou-Who, who had a crisis of Christmas. She just wanted to know the meaning.

As we rush around to get the perfect gifts for our loved ones, darting around others in the store, not always apologizing, and sometimes being rude to the clerk, who'd rather the whole season be over with, we're not understanding. I've been raised believing that Jesus was born on Christmas and that's why we celebrate. I won't push my beliefs on you. I still believe that and celebrate that. But no matter if you celebrate Christmas or Hanukkah or any of the numerous holidays in December (including my birthday on the 31st), I don't want us to loose ourselves in the buying of gifts and spending of money.

Recently, a friend of mine gave me a gift-card for groceries. I work two jobs and sometimes I still struggle to make ends meet. Food usually goes to the end of the list after all the bills and gas for the car. I don't always make the right choices for food because I'm trying to find something quick and easy so I can rush to my next job. I felt so loved when she did this for me and grateful.

I went to the grocery store to buy groceries, excited that I could actually buy more than bread and milk to last the week until the next paycheck. It wasn't much, but it made me very happy. I picked out healthy foods and filled the shopping basket. I went up to the line and stepped behind an elderly man, who was talking to the cashier, patting his pockets and looking a bit frazzled. He couldn't find his wallet and he figured he left it at home. I could see his bill was greater than the gift-card in my hand. The cashier bagged his things and pushed them to the front so he could come back. The woman rang up my items. I couldn't. Instead, I pulled out my debit card and paid for my groceries.

Before leaving the store, I went up to the manager who'd taken the man's cart and told her I had a weird request. I wanted the man who forgot his wallet to have my gift-card. She pursed her lips, busy and confused saying that he'd left. I kindly told her that I wanted him to have it when he came back, so he could use it. She nodded and tucked it into her pocket, saying she would.

I could have used the gift-card and thought nothing of it. But I couldn't. That man needed it more than I did. I wanted to give him a gift, even if he'll never thank me and I'll probably never see him again. I just wanted to show him the kindness that someone showed me and give it to him.

That's what I want really want for Christmas this year. I want others to show people kindness. Strangers or friends, to love them and some times be spontaneously kind. Yes, I'd love to find a literary agent before Christmas or to meet the guy of my dreams or to be able to have time to read a book every day, but those are dreams that can wait. I want people to remember that Christmas is a time to tell others that we love them and to spend time together, laughing and making memories.

What I really want for Christmas is for people to be kind and love.

Wednesday, December 2, 2015

IWSG - We are Writers

Today is the first Wednesday of December; it's time for another meeting of the Insecure Writer's Support Group, (created by our Ninja Captain Alex Cavanaugh) . I accidentally posted yesterday, but I fixed it! :) We meet on the first Wednesday of every month to share our insecurities without judgment or to share what we've learned as writers.

I've decided that I want to share how grateful I am! I'm thankful that we have such a great group of supportive writers and we have such an amazing passion. What other legal passion can spend crazy hours staring at the computer, killing people and making them fall in love? We hear those voices in our heads and write the stories that they tell us. Some people may think we are crazy, but I think writers are pretty incredible people.

I hope you guys had a wonderful year and have a splendid December! :) What's your favorite thing about writing from this past year? :)

Tuesday, December 1, 2015

December Goals

Only 24 days until Christmas! I'm starting my countdown today since I'm also wrapping presents and watching "The Grinch" with Jim Carrey. I'm excited for a month of celebrating with friends and family! I invited a friend over for Thanksgiving last month, who, since because of working on Black Friday, he couldn't make it home to see his family for Thanksgiving. It was so wonderful to share with another person and be thankful with them! I'm looking forward to spending time with my sisters, brothers, cousins, aunt, friends, and parents. I love the Christmas season. :)

It's time for an update in goals!

Here are my goals from November:
* Write to 50,000 words on "Summer of Lies"

I completed my only goal from last month! I finally finished writing the book that's been plaguing me for months. Granted, it has lots of problems, but it's done. :) I also finished my reading goal of 50 books this year, so I'm doing some fun reading to celebrate by rereading the Harry Potter series! Here's what I read last month, the rereads are in purple.

A Faerie's Revenge (Creepy Hollow #5) by Rachel Morgan
In the Year of the Boar and Jackie Robinson by Bette Bao Lord
Until Friday Night (The Field Party #1) by Abbi Glines
Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone by J.K. Rowling
Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets by J.K. Rowling
Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban by J.K. Rowling

I have no idea how I managed to write a book and read six books, but I did! :)

Goals for December:
* Finish rereading the Harry Potter series

* Create writing/personal goals for 2016

* Celebrate Christmas with my family and friends

Have a great December! How did your goals from last month go? :)

Saturday, November 7, 2015

Confession: I'm Not a Finisher

If one were to step into my apartment, push past Quincy (my cat who I think was an escapist in a previous life), NOT stare at my dirty dishes, and settle onto my couch with my Halloween pillow and leftover candy, you might want to turn on my Netflix. It pretty much sums up my writing.

Unfinished Shows
Star Trek: The Next Generation (I only have one season left)
Doctor Who (I stopped before David Tennant stops being the Doctor)
Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D (I made it half way through season 1)
Firefly (I know, I'm ashamed, but I only watched the first episode)
Criminal Minds (I really only watch a few, skipping around)
NCIS (I've seen every episode, until Ziva left and then I stopped watching)
H20 Mermaids (I only have one season left)
Mako Mermaids (Yes, I have a mermaid problem and I stopped after season 1)
Jane the Virgin (I just started this one, but I already might stop)
Gilmore Girls (I watched all of season 1, skipped around, and watched the last season)
Parenthood (I stopped after season 2)
.... etc .....

Finished Shows
Merlin (it took me a year after the series ended to finish)
Sherlock (I just watched the most recent episode two months ago)
 M*A*S*H (I actually binge watched this series in two and a half months)

(Yes, I finished Star Trek: Voyager and Enterprise before they were on Netflix, so I don't count them.) There's a bit of a problem with the first list. It's not that I don't like those shows since I LOVE Star Trek and Doctor Who, but I'm not a finisher. Yes, I'm a busy person with two jobs and attempting to be a writer, but that's not it.

I don't like things to end.

Right in the feels...
Maybe it stems from some childhood thing or it's just the bits and pieces of my life added together to make me not like when things end. I hate reading to the end of a book series and I'll take as much time as I can. I love things too much to let them end. That's why most of those shows are unfinished. I don't want to stop loving a character and spending time with them. You only get to experience something for the first time, once.

But I'm that way in writing sometimes. I can't seem to write a book to the end. The amount of unfinished chunks of books on my computer is probably embarrassing. I don't know if that is the problem with the book I'm writing for NaNoWriMo this month, but I failed to finish it during the July Camp NaNoWriMo session and it's been bothering me since. I want to finish this book, but I feel like it just sucks. I know first drafts aren't supposed to be perfect, but I'm hard time seeing this one ever be good. But I want to finish it and I can't.

I'm trying NOT to let this book defeat me and I want to finish it, but... bleh, it's pretty hard. Maybe once I'm finished with this book, I will finally take the time to move some of those shows to my Finished list. Do you give up on books, TV shows, or writing because you don't want it to end?

Wednesday, November 4, 2015

IWSG - I'll Try

I'm joining in late today, but I've been thinking about what I wanted to write for this month's "Insecure Writer's Support Group", (created by our Ninja Captain Alex Cavanaugh). It's a place where writers can talk about something they are feeling insecure about without judgement or if they want to share an encouragement.

I've realized that my last months of entries have been...

So, today I thought I'd do something more encouraging. In the fifth grade classroom that I work in, the kids are reading "In the Year of the Boar and Jackie Robinson" by Bette Bao Lord. It's about a young girl named Shirley who moves to America from China in 1947. She starts out not understanding a word of English and having absolutely no friends because she's different. In the chapter we read today, we finally started to find out why the title includes Jackie Robinson. Shirley asks her teacher what is so important about Jackie Robinson and her teacher goes into these beautiful two paragraphs about why he's important.

Jackie Robinson created a future for himself by breaking race barriers. He took injustice and defeated it to make his own dreams come true. Shirley finds something in common with Jackie because she was picked on by her classmates like how his teammates didn't like him. She looks up to him. The teacher in the classroom I work in started talking to the kids about how they can overcome hard things if they just try. They'll never complete anything or make a difference if they never try.

Now, you are probably wondering why I'm telling you this. Trust me, it fits. It really hit me when the teacher started talking about trying. She told the kids that they will never fulfill their dreams if they don't start. Even if they don't succeed, it doesn't mean they failed. It means that they tried and that's wonderful.

Writing sucks most days of the week. I've been working on the same book since June, struggling to even write the first draft and I don't like it. I've fought this book, wanted to give up many times, and thought of quitting writing. But I can't. Because I love to write and I'm trying to be an author. I'm trying. Some days we have to take our writing one day at a time. We won't be perfect, but we are writers because it's our passion. We try. :) We write and we don't give up. I know we aren't Jackie Robinson and will never overcome what he did, but we can try to be writers and try to make a difference in this world. I'm going to try. :)

Sunday, November 1, 2015

November Goals & NaNoWriMo

October is sadly over, along with my favorite holiday, Halloween. I did have a nice time celebrating with my family and friends! I just wish I didn't work so much. Working two jobs is just exhausting, but it's going better. It's time for an update in goals!

Here are my goals from October:
* Write to 30,000 on "Summer of Lies"

* Celebrate Halloween, my favorite holiday

* Girl's weekend in Minnesota

(We watched Mulan when we were on our girl's weekend and I kept using that line all weekend.) I didn't get any writing done other than the first page of two different novel ideas. But since it is November, I plan to do a lot of writing this month! :) I did do a lot of reading last month and read some pretty good books. (The ones in purple were reread - sometimes I just really enjoy reading a book that I love again.)

The Faerie Guardian (Creepy Hollow #1) by Rachel Morgan
The Faerie Prince (Creepy Hollow #2) by Rachel Morgan
Catching Jordan by Miranda Kenneally
How to Be Brave by E. Katherine Kottaras
Love, Lucas by Chantele Sedgewick
99 Days by Katie Cotugno
The Realms of the Gods (Immortals #4) by Tamora Pierce

I love reading! :)

Goals for November:
* Write to 50,000 words on "Summer of Lies"
My current word count is 26,215 words. Yes, I already have half of this book written, but I've struggled to write anything on it in months. Hopefully this will help out! :) I do love writing as a group.

That's my only goal for this month! With the awful retail Black Friday coming up and getting more hours at work, hopefully I can at least write my book! If you are doing NaNoWriMo this month, good luck to you! My page is here if you'd like to follow along with my progress.

Saturday, October 10, 2015

Making a Switch

I've been doing some thinking about my writing struggles. I've been stuck trying to write more on "Summer of Lies" for over two months, getting only a few words written at a time and then deleting them. Not much progress has been made and I'm too frustrated to continue. I got to a point where I hated the book and I couldn't write because I felt like a failure.

I've decided to take a little break from the book and try another idea. A few months ago I saw an agent's #MSWL (manuscript wishlist) for a book with drama nerds and plays. I did two plays in high school, both my senior year and I had a lot of fun with them! In one play, I was a maid in a who-killed-whom play called "Done to Death". It was a blast! I loved pretending to be this sweet maid, who also might have killed someone. I did some crying, carrying a gun, and my first experience with on stage kissing. The second play I was in... I was a grumpy clown. I wasn't as much of a fan of that play, but I loved being with my friends and getting to act in both!

It made me a little inspired and I wrote one page back in August. But I was still so focused on working on "Summer of Lies" that I pushed the one page off to the side.

I've tried so hard to write the next part of my current MS, but I can't do it. After sharing about my struggles in the Insecure Writer's Support Group, I've decided to set aside "Summer of Lies" and work on the drama novel I started. So far, all I have is two pages about a girl named Anya. I do know that there's going to be a big secret with Anya, quickly to be revealed in the first chapter. She's a witch. I've always wanted to try writing a story with a witch, so I will do my best! Hopefully I can enjoy writing this book. The last book had a lot of heavy material and I desperately needed a break.

I have to work this afternoon, but I'm hoping to do some writing when I get home later! :) Have a great Saturday!! :)

Wednesday, October 7, 2015

IWSG - Losing faith

Since today is the Insecure Writer's Support Group (created by our Ninja Captain Alex Cavanaugh) meeting, I will say that I'm insecure about my writing... in general.

I know that it can take years and years and books and more books, revised and rewritten, but it feels like forever from now. I've been stuck writing my current MS (Summer of Lies) since this summer. Normally, I love first drafts, but I can't seem to finish it, and at the same time, this idea seems to be blocking any new ideas.

Yep. I'm feeling insecure that I can even finish this novel and if I do, will it just suck? I feel like I have a pile of books in my computer of novels that will never be good enough to be published. Or maybe, I feel like I'll never be a good enough writer. I'm down in the dumps about writing. I had plans to write today, but then my cat ate my headphones earlier this week and I don't have the money to go buy new ones until pay day. Then I just decided to sit home and watch a movie. I pushed writing to the side.

I'm really having a hard time believing that I can make it. I really want to be happy with where I am as a writer and continue to improve, but I'm stuck in a rut. :(

Thursday, October 1, 2015

October Goals

Guys, I missed it! I actually forgot to post about Hobbit Day last month. It's the first year in three years that I've missed it. I did actually celebrate the day with my little sister after I got off work. We watched the final Hobbit film together since she hadn't seen it yet. I also didn't really get any pictures of us either! Oh well, there's next year and hopefully next year we can make a whole day of it.

Also, things have still been pretty crazy between working two jobs. I'm working an average of 55 hours a week. 35 at one job and 20 at the other. I'm hoping to cut back on some hours soon so I have more free time!

It's time for an update in goals!

Here are my goals from September:
* Write to 30,000 on "Summer of Lies"

* Read 4 books

 I didn't get much writing done this month, but I finally did get some reading done! I'm very happy with the reading progress I made. Here are the books I read in September:

Bridge to Terabithia by Katherine Patterson
The Summer of Chasing Mermaids by Sarah Ockler
The Heir (The Selection, #4) by Keira Cass
The Boyfriend Thief (Stolen Kisses #1) by Shana Norris
The Isle of the Lost (Descendants #1) by Melissa de la Cruz
Firsts by Laurie Elizabeth Flynn
No Interest in Love (All About Love, #2) by Cassie Mae
A Faerie's Secret (Creepy Hollow, #4) by Rachel Morgan

Yes, I read eight books last month! I really enjoyed all of them! Some were NetGalley books that had been sitting on my Kindle for a while and others were ones I've been dying to read! I've found that I have at least thirty minutes a day at my job, along with my lunch break that I can do some reading. I'm hoping that writing will fall in soon too!

October Goals:
* Write to 30,000 on "Summer of Lies"

* Celebrate Halloween, my favorite holiday :)

* Girl's weekend in Minnesota

Hopefully those goals will be simple enough to do! November is creeping up quickly and hopefully things will have settled some at work so I can get more writing done in NaNoWriMo. How did your goals from September go? What are your goals for October?

Sunday, September 20, 2015

Just this once, EVERYBODY lives!

I'm trying to get back into blogging and I've been watching lots of "Doctor Who" lately. (I'm only on the 4th season because I'm taking my time and enjoying it, so no spoilers.) I was re-watching "The Doctor Dances" last night and the scene toward the end really spoke to me. The Doctor was watching as the little boy was healed and reunited with his mother. Then the rest of those affected by the Empty Child are restored and the Doctor shouts....

"Just this once, everybody lives!"

For all of the adventures that the Doctor goes on, his constant companion is described as death. Clive Finch in the first episode with the 9th says to Rose: "The Doctor is a legend woven throughout history. When disaster comes he's there. He brings a storm in his wake and he has only one constant companion. Death." In light of that, it's such a fantastic moment that everybody lives! His excitement is contagious and I can't help but smile!

It makes me think about writing. How many people want to be published authors? Just this past week I saw 42.7k tweets and more about #PitMad. Yes, hundreds of those are the same books, being tried just one more time or being tweeted twice an hour.  But there are hundreds, thousands of writers trying to find an agent who will help make their dream into a paperback book with a dazzling cover, waiting to be read. We want someone to thumb through the pages and enjoy our story with laughter or tears. It's our dream.

But how many times does it feel like our constant companion is rejection? We try querying, get a few rejections, revise and query again, only for more rejections to come pouring in.

 It's very difficult at times and we feel like we are never going to make it; to become published authors and have a stranger enjoy our books. But...

We can't give up. I believe that everyone who wants to be an author and really gives it their everything, has a chance of finding an agent and being published. Or finding the right editor, and self-publishing their novel. We can't give up! Hopefully we will all get a change to throw out our arms and say "Everybody lives!"


As a side note to update everyone, I've actually done a little bit of writing last week and a lot of reading! Hopefully there will be a few more blog posts this week since it is Tolkien Week, celebrating J.R.R. Tolkien and his marvelous books. :) Have a great Sunday!

Wednesday, September 2, 2015

September Goals and IWSG

My goodness, I feel so behind this month! It's been a crazy month so far and it's only the second day. I'm working my new job full time at the elementary school and still working part time in retail, so it's a bit crazy and I'm averaging 55 hours a week. 

Since today is the Insecure Writer's Support Group (created by our Ninja Captain Alex Cavanaugh) meeting, I will say that I'm insecure about my writing at all this month! I'm trying to make a little time for writing, but I'm worried about not having time to write when working 55 hours a week or more. I just need to make a little time to write and follow through! I'm also having trouble finding time to read too. I don't want to fall behind in my goals.

Also, it's time for an update in my goals!

Here are my goals from August:
 * Revise first 5 chapters of "Somebody to Love"

* Read "The Summer of Chasing Mermaids" by Sarah Ockler

Yep, I didn't get to any of my goals last month! Oops!! But I will try again next month. I only read two books and the purple one was a reread!
Summer Confessions by Lynn Vroman
City of Bones (The Mortal Instruments #1) by Cassandra Clare

September Goals:
* Write to 30,000 on "Summer of Lies"

* Read 4 books

Here's to hoping that this month is better than last and here's a movie to make laugh a little!

How did your goals from last month go? What are you feeling insecure about this month?

Saturday, August 1, 2015

August Goals

It's time for a new month and time for an update in my writing goals! School will be back in session at the end of this month, with it I'll be starting a new job. A full time job. It'll be my first full time job in almost 3 years. I'm excited to be starting. I'll be working one-on-one with a child in an elementary school. I can't wait to start! :)

Here are my goals from July:
* Write 25,000 words on "Summer of Lies"
I only wrote 4,833 words.

* Read three books

One out of two. Meh, not bad. I did have intentions of writing a good chunk of "Summer of Lies", but I didn't get to it. Between work and just watching too much TV, I did a little bit of writing but I took a break after that. I'm okay with taking a little break for writing until I get some inspiration again and past being stuck and thinking everything I write sucks. I've started watching "Doctor Who" and that's taking up an exciting bit of my time! I did do some reading! :)

Has to Be Love by Jolene Perry
How to Love by Katie Cotugno
The Glass Mermaid by Poppy Lawless
The Eye of Minds (The Morality Doctrine #1) by James Dashner
The Rule of Thoughts (The Morality Doctrine #2) by James Dashner

Goals for August:
* Revise first 5 chapters of "Somebody to Love"

* Read "The Summer of Chasing Mermaids" by Sarah Ockler

With my new job starting, I think two goals is probably best! How did your goals from last month go? What are your goals for August?

Wednesday, July 15, 2015

Finish what?

Today is the half-way point of the July session of Camp NaNoWriMo. And I'm stuck.

So stuck.

I feel like I've got in a cycle of starting a book, pushing forward for a little bit, and then giving up. I can't find motivation, whether trying to plan it or write by the seat of my pants. I can't finish it. Do you ever struggle with finishing a novel? I know it sometimes takes people years to finish a first draft, but I'm usually a quick drafter. The last few months, nope. Writing is like trying to iron curled up pants, like Shemp from the Three Stooges. Ouch!

How do you find motivation to write when you can't make it past the fourth chapter or second chapter? I'm beginning to think that the novel I'm working on just might not be right for me. So I might give up on it. For a while and maybe come back to it.

I started a different novel today. One with no name, but about a girl named Lena and a boy named Kayson. Both are part of a group of misfits that has been cursed with different magical gifts and are being pursued by the government that has taken over. I have no idea if this is the novel I'll finish the first draft of, but maybe.

I think I'm a little stuck because I'm trying very hard to get a previous novel published. I don't want to give up on it, but I'm having trouble getting my focus on a new book.

Yeah, I'm a bit all over the place with my writing lately. Any suggestions?

Wednesday, July 1, 2015

July Goals and IWSG

Today is the first day of Camp NaNoWriMo July session! I did a rewrite of a novel during the April session and my goal for this session is to write a good chunk of the new novel I'm stuck on. Also, I renamed it from "Just About Average" to "Summer of Lies" - it fits Lexi's story much better!

Mock cover
Title: Summer of Lies
Genre/Category: YA Contemporary
Word Count: 25,000
Pitch: Lexi hasn't spoken to her best friend, Tristan, in six months. The day after he proclaimed his love to her, a rumor spread around school. Instead of listening to her, he believed the rumor and ended their friendship. Lexi is left with the shadow of the friend, who didn't help her through the hardest time in her life.

Since today is the Insecure Writer's Support Group (created by our Ninja Captain Alex Cavanaugh) meeting too, I will say that I'm insecure about my writing at all this month! Life has been very busy. I have one friend in critical condition in the Mayo Clinic and I'm struggling with finding something to do. Work has been stressful and I'm exhausted, but hopefully things will be on an up-swing soon!

Also, it's time for an update in my goals!

Here are my goals from June:
* Read "Fraction of Earth" by Kelley Lynn

* Write to 30,000 on "Just About Average"

* Go to my childhood friend's wedding :)

Well... I got one goal. That's okay. I tried. :)

I did get a ton of reading done last month and I'm very happy about that! Wow, that's a lot more books when I put them in a list like that! :)

A Change of Mind and Other Stores by Nick Wilford
Eat Play Lust by Tawna Fenske
Doing It for Love (All About Love #1) by Cassie Mae
Believing God by Beth Moore
Into a Million Pieces by Angela V. Cook
The Choice by Allison J. Kennedy
Bumped by Megan McCafferty

Goals for July:
* Write 25,000 words on "Summer of Lies"

* Read three books

Small goals for next month! Hopefully I will do better. How did your goals go last month? What are you feeling insecure about this month?

Wednesday, June 17, 2015

Kicking my Butt!

My WIP is kicking my butt. I can't do it.

 But I want to.

Yet, I can't.

I've been stuck at about 15k on my novel for three weeks now. I've written 12 words here or there, but usually I lose ten words every time I write because the last sentence I wrote... sucked. I need to stop fixing what I've written and finish this draft. This draft has been a tough one. My goal is to write to 30k this month. I'm not sure if I'm going to make it, but I'll try to get something written soon.

I can say that I'm doing a little more reading this month! I got 2 new ARCs from Netgalley and I can't wait to read them!! :) How's your month going so far? :)

Thursday, June 11, 2015

I am Thor

Yes, I am excited to announce that I'm now THOR over at YAvengers!

The lovely Darci Cole has stepped aside to join another group and I am her replacement as Thor, God of Thunder. I will be posting about writing and publishing, along with Captain America, Phil Coulson, Hawkeye, Iron Man, Black Widow, Hulk, and Loki. I'm so excited to be joining them! It's like my first real writing thing with a bunch of awesome writers. (I hope that doesn't make me seem lame.) In preparation, I even downloaded 30 gifs of Thor! I'm ready.


Hopefully I will be doing a post with Darci toward the end of this month and I'll let you know when it is posted!

Thor. Yep, I'm mighty. :)

Wednesday, June 3, 2015

IWSG - Finding time...

Today is another meeting of The Insecure Writer's Support Group, which posts on the first Wednesday of every month and is run by our Ninja Captain Alex Cavanaugh. This is a place where writers can express doubts and concerns without fear of appearing foolish or weak. Those who have been through the fire can offer assistance and guidance. It’s a safe haven for insecure writers of all kinds. The awesome co-hosts today are M. Pax, Tracy Jo, Patricia Lynne, Rachna Chhabria, Feather Stone, and Randi Lee!

I'm struggling to find time and motivation for writing lately. I did an entire rewrite in April, but the month of May.... I only wrote 1k. I work two jobs, but I only work one in the summer, which I'm hoping will help.

After spending days where I'd work ten hours between my two jobs or more, it was hard to find motivation to do anything other than get home and binge watch Netflix. (On the up side, I've watched all of M*A*S*H. Wonderful series!) I also want to find more time for blogging and reading blogs! I feel like I've kinda fallen off the blogosphere, but I want to be here. :)

I just need to make more time. Maybe I should get a Time-Turner... How do you balance life and writing time? :)

Monday, June 1, 2015

June Goals

I can honestly say that I didn't get much done last month! I know today is the day for an update in my goals, but I didn't get much writing done at all last month. And I'm okay with that. :) I had a busy last few weeks at my preschool job before summer started, getting the kids through graduation and trying to keep their active little minds focused. I'll miss them, but I'm ready for a nice summer break.

Here are my goals from May:
* Write to 30,000 on new novel, "Just About Average"
I only wrote 1,000 words. Oops. I tried? Words are still words. :)

* Begin revisions for "Nothing Left to Lose"

* Read "Play On (Game On Book 4)" by Kyra Lennon

Yep, I wasn't even close to achieving my goals. But I'm okay with that. :) I only read three books, but I'm okay with that! (The ones in purple are rereads.) :)

Play On (Game On, #4) by Kyra Lennon
Wolf-Speaker (Immortals, #2) by Tamora Pierce
Emperor Mage (Immortals, #3) by Tamora Pierce

Goals for June:
* Read "Fraction of Earth" by Kelley Lynn

* Write to 30,000 on "Just About Average"

* Go to my childhood friend's wedding :)

I hope your goals from May went well! I'm looking for to my June goals!!

Wednesday, May 20, 2015

The Writer's Voice Query and First 250 Words

Genre/Category: YA Contemporary, 57k


Struggling with Meniere’s disease and the death of her parents, Alanna is closed off to almost everyone. At seventeen, she should be worried about school dances or kissing boys, not about losing her hearing. The only thing normal in her life is her struggle to pass math.

Desperate not to flunk, Alanna agrees to get a tutor – Jared – who is the same kid she stood up for when a linebacker bullied him in the hallway. Jared is the first guy not to treat her differently because of her hearing aids. He makes an adorable effort at sign language and simplifies the hardest math questions for her. Even his obsession with Star Trek starts growing on Alanna. She wants to open up to him, but she’s afraid he’ll desert her if he learns about the accident that killed her parents, or her attempted suicide. Complicating matters is their shared bully, who knows the truth about Alanna’s attempted suicide since he was the only to pull her out of the car.

As Alanna finds herself falling for Jared, she wants to tell him everything. She must stop lying and accept herself or she’ll lose Jared and never be able to take control of her own life.


The ball collided with my head, knocking me to the waxed floor. Yeah, yelling at the hearing impaired girl to move as a ball came at her… not the best plan. I should’ve been watching the balls instead of day dreaming about cute shirtless celebrities.

“Sorry Alanna!” The boy’s mouth moved and I managed to figure out what he was saying. The sounds muffled and ran together, but I could hear without my aids in. The words just didn’t always make sense.

Sitting up, I rubbed the sore spot. I didn’t wear my hearing-aids during gym class because I didn’t want them broken if someone threw a ball at my head. I could’ve left them in, but I felt safer taking them out. No one came running to make sure I was okay. No big surprise there. I straightened my dark blue gym shorts and stood. My feet took me straight to the bench. I assumed getting hit in the head meant I was “out”. The teacher, Mr. Carter, watched me with concern. I shrugged and waited. Whoever decided dodge ball was fun, never played with a competitive class of thirty-five students.

When I sat, the boy next to me moved three feet to the left. My fists clenched at my side. Hearing loss wasn’t a contagious disease, but everyone acted like it was. I glanced at the caged clock above the basketball hoop. Sweat ran down my cheek, but I refused to push up my sleeves.


Thanks for reading my entry! :)