Saturday, October 10, 2015

Making a Switch

I've been doing some thinking about my writing struggles. I've been stuck trying to write more on "Summer of Lies" for over two months, getting only a few words written at a time and then deleting them. Not much progress has been made and I'm too frustrated to continue. I got to a point where I hated the book and I couldn't write because I felt like a failure.

I've decided to take a little break from the book and try another idea. A few months ago I saw an agent's #MSWL (manuscript wishlist) for a book with drama nerds and plays. I did two plays in high school, both my senior year and I had a lot of fun with them! In one play, I was a maid in a who-killed-whom play called "Done to Death". It was a blast! I loved pretending to be this sweet maid, who also might have killed someone. I did some crying, carrying a gun, and my first experience with on stage kissing. The second play I was in... I was a grumpy clown. I wasn't as much of a fan of that play, but I loved being with my friends and getting to act in both!

It made me a little inspired and I wrote one page back in August. But I was still so focused on working on "Summer of Lies" that I pushed the one page off to the side.

I've tried so hard to write the next part of my current MS, but I can't do it. After sharing about my struggles in the Insecure Writer's Support Group, I've decided to set aside "Summer of Lies" and work on the drama novel I started. So far, all I have is two pages about a girl named Anya. I do know that there's going to be a big secret with Anya, quickly to be revealed in the first chapter. She's a witch. I've always wanted to try writing a story with a witch, so I will do my best! Hopefully I can enjoy writing this book. The last book had a lot of heavy material and I desperately needed a break.

I have to work this afternoon, but I'm hoping to do some writing when I get home later! :) Have a great Saturday!! :)

Wednesday, October 7, 2015

IWSG - Losing faith

Since today is the Insecure Writer's Support Group (created by our Ninja Captain Alex Cavanaugh) meeting, I will say that I'm insecure about my writing... in general.

I know that it can take years and years and books and more books, revised and rewritten, but it feels like forever from now. I've been stuck writing my current MS (Summer of Lies) since this summer. Normally, I love first drafts, but I can't seem to finish it, and at the same time, this idea seems to be blocking any new ideas.

Yep. I'm feeling insecure that I can even finish this novel and if I do, will it just suck? I feel like I have a pile of books in my computer of novels that will never be good enough to be published. Or maybe, I feel like I'll never be a good enough writer. I'm down in the dumps about writing. I had plans to write today, but then my cat ate my headphones earlier this week and I don't have the money to go buy new ones until pay day. Then I just decided to sit home and watch a movie. I pushed writing to the side.

I'm really having a hard time believing that I can make it. I really want to be happy with where I am as a writer and continue to improve, but I'm stuck in a rut. :(

Thursday, October 1, 2015

October Goals

Guys, I missed it! I actually forgot to post about Hobbit Day last month. It's the first year in three years that I've missed it. I did actually celebrate the day with my little sister after I got off work. We watched the final Hobbit film together since she hadn't seen it yet. I also didn't really get any pictures of us either! Oh well, there's next year and hopefully next year we can make a whole day of it.

Also, things have still been pretty crazy between working two jobs. I'm working an average of 55 hours a week. 35 at one job and 20 at the other. I'm hoping to cut back on some hours soon so I have more free time!

It's time for an update in goals!

Here are my goals from September:
* Write to 30,000 on "Summer of Lies"

* Read 4 books

 I didn't get much writing done this month, but I finally did get some reading done! I'm very happy with the reading progress I made. Here are the books I read in September:

Bridge to Terabithia by Katherine Patterson
The Summer of Chasing Mermaids by Sarah Ockler
The Heir (The Selection, #4) by Keira Cass
The Boyfriend Thief (Stolen Kisses #1) by Shana Norris
The Isle of the Lost (Descendants #1) by Melissa de la Cruz
Firsts by Laurie Elizabeth Flynn
No Interest in Love (All About Love, #2) by Cassie Mae
A Faerie's Secret (Creepy Hollow, #4) by Rachel Morgan

Yes, I read eight books last month! I really enjoyed all of them! Some were NetGalley books that had been sitting on my Kindle for a while and others were ones I've been dying to read! I've found that I have at least thirty minutes a day at my job, along with my lunch break that I can do some reading. I'm hoping that writing will fall in soon too!

October Goals:
* Write to 30,000 on "Summer of Lies"

* Celebrate Halloween, my favorite holiday :)

* Girl's weekend in Minnesota

Hopefully those goals will be simple enough to do! November is creeping up quickly and hopefully things will have settled some at work so I can get more writing done in NaNoWriMo. How did your goals from September go? What are your goals for October?