Wednesday, October 7, 2015

IWSG - Losing faith

Since today is the Insecure Writer's Support Group (created by our Ninja Captain Alex Cavanaugh) meeting, I will say that I'm insecure about my writing... in general.

I know that it can take years and years and books and more books, revised and rewritten, but it feels like forever from now. I've been stuck writing my current MS (Summer of Lies) since this summer. Normally, I love first drafts, but I can't seem to finish it, and at the same time, this idea seems to be blocking any new ideas.


Yep. I'm feeling insecure that I can even finish this novel and if I do, will it just suck? I feel like I have a pile of books in my computer of novels that will never be good enough to be published. Or maybe, I feel like I'll never be a good enough writer. I'm down in the dumps about writing. I had plans to write today, but then my cat ate my headphones earlier this week and I don't have the money to go buy new ones until pay day. Then I just decided to sit home and watch a movie. I pushed writing to the side.

I'm really having a hard time believing that I can make it. I really want to be happy with where I am as a writer and continue to improve, but I'm stuck in a rut. :(

5 comments:

  1. I'm sorry about the way you've been feeling, and I hope that things get better soon. I'm also sorry about your headphones, and I hope your cat is okay. As far as first drafts go, I always think of Anne Lamott's advice in Bird by Bird. That is, I used to get stuck on first drafts too, until I read her advice about how it's okay to write imperfect first drafts; the important thing is to just write through until the end, and then go back and revise it. Easier said than done, I know, but it still helped a lot.

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  2. We all have moments like this; I've been stuck in a rut for the greater part of this year, but I'm starting to come out of it now, and I'm sure you will too :)

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  3. I'm sorry you're feeling this way. I have been having the same problems with my current MS - I just want to give up on it and it's made me very discouraged about writing in general. Here's hoping we both get out of the rut. Take care!

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  4. It stinks to be stuck. I'd say if what you're working on is no fun, take a break to recharge or see if one of your other projects inspires you. Sometimes that's all it takes to get back into the thick of it. But don't lose faith in yourself. You'll never know what you can create until you get those words down. Never give up! Hang in there and good luck!

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  5. Your cat ate your headphones?
    Go do something really different, something that will supercharge you and get the brain power rolling again.

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