It's half way through June and summer is... alright so far. I'm applying for jobs and trying to figure out what I want to do. Which involves a lot of staring at my computer, and watching reruns of "Law and Order: SVU". I have been working on one thing.
I'm a part of the YAvengers blog. I'm Thor. :)
It's something that I joined last year, but we've all been pretty busy and the blog has slowed to a stop. I've been working with one of the other members, Captain America, and helping to recruit some new members to the blog and join us! I've wanted to write again. Well, at least to write on the blog again. I haven't had much progress with working on a new novel yet. I'm still a bit stuck, but I'm working on that. I plan on spending my afternoon writing tomorrow.
Writing used to be this passion I had, but as I've been beaten a bit by the world, it has lost some meaning for me. I've become really tired of waiting for a dream that might never happen. I'm trying to find that passion again. I'm really hoping that I can find that passion again. If I find that passion again, maybe the rest of my life will start to fall into place again. It is possible that I'm putting too much pressure on my writing. I know that. But I'm getting to a point in my life where I've been pretty frustrated. Careers haven't been working out, I'm single at 27, working multiple jobs and not being able to pay bills, along with my writing dream remaining stagnant.
It's been hard the last few months.
I've had three friends make baby announcements in two days. I'm excited for them, but throwing a pity party for myself. It was hard when my friends started getting married before me and now they are having kids while I'm still painfully single. It was hard when my friends started getting agents and now they have books being published, when I can't even decide if I'm a good writer. I'm feeling a bit insecure in my life.
I'm trying to make things better, but it's really been a struggle lately. Sorry if this post was a little honest, but this is me and I'm struggling right now.